All of a sudden a meaning of a dream I had a while ago dawned on me.
In a dream, I am being one of the two high-ranking officers, who are being publicly executed for the atrocities of the war. The mob is angry. We are guilty.
My companion is higher in rank than me and he is viewed as the main villain. He is the first to be executed. The method is rather morbid. One’s arms and legs chopped off at the knees and elbows, after which one has to move along the parallel bars (like in gymnastics) on the stumps of his arms.
I am witnessing my comrade as he is about to be executed. His face shows no fear, no resentment, no repentance, just pure anger and defiance. I admire his courage, as he, with his limbs severed, moves swiftly along the parallel bars. The expression of his face is very strong. I admire his strength, and gather my own strength now, as I am to go through the same ordeal. His example gives me encouragement that I also can do that, although I feel much weaker…
And so, suddenly I see what that dream means. It reflects to me, that I view myself as the one not belonging to the masses, yet not the leader. I am hesitant to act, fearing pain and danger, and need to see that someone has done that same thing before me. I need a reassurance that I can do it, whatever that is.
It’s funny how some dreams stay in your consciousness for a while and reveal their meaning to you layer by layer.